Wednesday, January 12, 2011 10:19 AM
To: APT

Dear Hubby,

Good morning to you and hoping you rested well last night.

Do you love me? I know I've been repeating this question. I just want you to be 100% sure that you've made the right choice and ready for a new life together. I always think and believe that true love only happens to others. But fate obviously has different plans in store for me when our paths crossed... I hope that ours are true love just like Deedee thought..

When we first met you in Oct 2009, feelings that I didn't know existed stirred in my heart. An unexplained desire to know you better and hope that I made a good impression. It is not often that I come across a person in my life that I want him to take notice of me .. but I was desperate that you would still want to be in touch with me after I left Manchester... and when you did, I plomise myself that I will make this relationship work and stronger longing to make this last.

I hope I've made a right choice and that you are the one that I could share my life with...being with you is comfort, love, security, contentment, passion and happiness, all rolled into one. This relationship may be fairly 1½ years old but I can earnestly say that I love you with all my heart. It grew deeper after I've met your kids and Erin get along well with R **** l. I am the happiest mum and wife in the whole entire world! of course happiest Nana too. I still can feel and smell Joshua whenever I look at his photos. I can remember how his baby smell hmmmm... bite bite yummy

About the diet plan, please include chillies in my food preparation ok?

OK talk later hunny.

Loving you always ...

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Wednesday, January 12, 2011 6:30 AM
To: MT
Subject: wednesday

good morning hunny

Im not sure , with the exception of you actually being here, just how life could be any better than it is right now

I love you, I love our kids, I love my life, my job, I love being in love with you, i even love W******! (and sometimes, thats not so easy!)

although I got home late this evening, Im full of energy, just itching to get back to the office tomorrow, cos every day that passes, means its a day closer to being together again, I can't wait for the weekend, to do a little more to improve our home, then it will be even closer to that tome we meet next.

I want next week to fly, hmmmm, I think you get the idea by now, hehehe

Im going to compose a diet regime for you, which, if you follow, you will benefit from, just dun complain abt the food tho! I will do this with my love for you in mind, knowing that if you were to follow it, you will improve your health, feel better, and hopefully in the long term, be glad you took my advice cos you will feel better, have less joint pain, have more energy and feel soooo much better

Only Allah swa, knows how much i feel for you, its complete, its total and we are destined to be together for all time, and I can't wait for it to start.

talk to you later hunn,
bye for now

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Tuesday, January 11, 2011 10:50 AM
To: APT

Hi baby,
Auuwww.. Another touching email this mornng.
I'm beginning to love you more each day darling. I hope our love stays this way forever. I don't want to lose you coz I'm so deeply in love with you. And of course, you should know it by now.

As much as you want me there, I can't wait to be your legal wife, to be able to look after your needs and house. To be there when you come back from work. To share our ups and downs together as a family.

I'm happy that you've began to read the book as I thot it's gonna be another collection for the shelve only as I place it there the last time. Do you know that you can pray just by sitting on the chair if you can't kneel or having knee/leg problems? I will guide you when I live there and as for myself I will pray regularly and be a good muslimah and wife. Coz I believe a family that plays together stays together and I also believe a family that prays together stays together. I think families who pray together have a greater chance of survival for two reasons:
1. It's asking God to be the glue that holds the family together.
2. It's humbling to: pray together, ask for forgiveness, and come before God united

All my life I always believe that people seem to do better when they think there is a spiritual aspect to their marriage. Without a doubt, it helps to keep the marriage together.

Today, I start my diet seriously. Gonna monitor my weight for a week. Will keep you update. Just toast this morning and veges for lunch. Try not to eat dinner maybe fruits and see how it helps for a week. When I'm there to live for good, I want to do brisk walking with you twice a week. Can? Or do it when you're out at work. I'll walk to the supermarket as part of the exercise. I wanna grow old with you.. even when we're old and gray, we can go wigg shopping together when our hair starts to falls out, and we can hold each other up instead of using canes.

Hubby, this distance isnt anything compared to how much i love you. These miles are only in my head, its just a number. I'll be there soon, your love is my home now.

OK baby, gotta go now. Will have to attend meeting in another site over lunch and be back here before 2pm.

Love you darling, now and many more years to come.

MT

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Tuesday, January 11, 2011 5:36 AM
To: MT

Good Morning Hunny

dunno whats happened this evening, from the time i came home, Ive been in front of the computer, listening to, reciting al-fatiha time and time again, if i dont know it by now, i dun think i ever will! thots of Islam have been with me until now, then, I just need to write to you before I go to bed and tell you how much Im missing you. How much Im in love with you, wanting to be together, nothing has been in my mind this evening, just two things, our faith, and you and you should know how good that feels.

Im thinking how wonderful it would be to have no other subjects to have in mind forever, even tho we know thats not possible, but now, I feel completely exhausted and yet full of energy, why cant I explain this properly? I dunno, better stop now, or ur gonna think im going even more crazy than usual!

Its so annoying, not being with you when ur not feeling well, i want to look after you, do things for you, take care of you, in other words, be your husband, how can you regard me as being a husband if I let you down like this? not being with you to make sure you dont get ill, hurt yourself, damm... I feel guilty, Ive let you down, and I dun want you hating me for not being there.

Next time you see him, I want you to thank K *** l again for his kind gift of the salat book, its being so useful and i keep going back to read it time and time again, I may not be perfect yet, but with even more practice, I will get to an acceptable level.

Feeling really tired now hunn, so im off to sleep, but I will see you tomorow morning.

Take good care of yourself, just like I will when you are finally here.

salam
I love you