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Friday, April 16, 2010 3:23 AM
To: MT


Good Morning Darling,

Last day of the week for you, and the first of my working weekend for me.

Actually, its been so nice this week, not having to wake at 4am to go to the store, im sure that for just the next four days, it will feel like having time off !

I just want the time to pass so fast until we meet again, there's nothing else I want more, so, I may as well keep myself busy and keep working.

I know you have such an awful lot of things to do, so I understand why you dont have time to send me emails very often !, but seriously, I know you have so much on your mind and i feel so helpless, not being with you.

How I miss you my darling, every day, all day long, Im thinking of nothing but you, and how many things we can do together, living a normal life together, me working to make you happy, you shopping ! Haha !
Well, going to bed now, now i like to go early so i can dream of us, and anyway, i need to get the sleep while im alone, when ur here i cant see me getting too much sleep, !

So, good morning, and good night baby, we'll alk later today, until then,

All my love,
APT

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Thursday, April 15, 2010 4:35 AM
To: MT

Good Morning Darling,

GRRRRR, 9pm and just home, the the boss asks me to be at a meeting at 10am tomorrow !, had to tell him i got an engineer coming to fix the gas boiler (which I have btw) so wont be there until 11.

hehe, just the way it goes sometimes, no worries. Anyway, its more important that I tell you exactly how much Im in love with you, which I am! and that I don't want you worrying about anything to do with us - just understand that Im here, going nowhere, and always will be here when you need me, either in person or in spirit, Im yours baby, forever, this is my word, believe me.

You know, its now like I just cant imagine any future that doesnt involve you, every little thing, every aspect of out future is just one thing - together there's no other way to put it, we belong together and will be together, its only a question of when, not if.

So, with that settled, just get ur pretty ass over here - right now !, hehe

Im so glad to hear that ur meds have started to work, I hate being so far away from you when ur not feeling good, i havent the chance to hold you, try to make you feel better, I know it may not make you better, but it would help me !, anyway, its a good excuse to give you a cuddle, something i miss so much.

Well, i had better get some sleep, who knows, the boss may change his mind and want to meet at 6am ! Haha,
goddnight for now darling, i'll call you from the mobile as soon as i can tomorrow (or today when you read this)

Love you insanely, madly, deeply,
APT

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Wednesday, April 14, 2010 4:04 AM
To: MT

Good Morning Darling,

Hmmmm, its 8 45pm and i just got home, over an hour later than i had anticipated, but the job got done, so the boss will have no complaints! hehe.
Whilst there, i got a call to tell me I have to attend a disciplinary hearing at 1pm on Friday afternoon, errr not for me of course, I mean I have to carry out the hearing, its for poor timekeeping, a worker has been signing out and claiming they worked longer than they actually did, I hope i dont have to have such a meeting with you! Hahaha

In fact, the only meeting i ever want to have with you is for the best of reasons, already, I meet you in my dreams, and for the future, i can t wait to meet you again in person, then i can hold you , so close, and feel you next to me, in my arms, where you belong!

M**, dont be in any doubt about us, I want you to be confident that when you are ready, you will come to stay with me, you will be welcomed by my children and neighbours alike, i just know, because of the way you are, your nature, everyone you meet will like you instantly, together, we will make friends and most importantly, we will be together for as long as you want, and if that is the same way I feel, that will be forever.

Looking forward to chatting with you in fb later today, until then babe,
I love you, always,
APT

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Tuesday, April 13, 2010 4:13 AM
To: MT

Good Morning Darling,

How are we feeling today ?

Better than yesterday I hope, still tired ? I hope you are taking your anti biotics and will finish the course, like it says on the bottle !

I just wish I had some medication to make us better, just one dose and we would be together forever, never apart again, I love you so much, what a magic potion that would be........

Please never give up on us babe, we've come so far in a short time, but still we know that we are right for each other, just like apple pie and cream, or Ben with Jerry !, we shouldnt be on our own, together is where we belong.

I know you have things to deal with,,, and you know I wish I could be there to give you support when you need it most, but I know you will get through these difficult times. And when they are over, you can look forward to a new beginning, Mrs T, Nanna M***, my everyday sweetheart and lover, keep this in your mind and in your heart, and hopefully it will keep you determined.

It's such a relief, not having to wake before 4am most mornings now, i should be able to rest properly and be able to work efficiently at both jobs, wide awake and still have more time to spend with you in FB and msn each day. I hope for example, by the time I wake in the morning, that you will have been able to read this email and log onto fb before i go to work, i should be in fb between say, 8 and 9 am, that will be three to four o clock this afternoon, I can only hope you will not be too busy to chat for a little while.

Take very good care of yourself my baby, drive carefully, get plenty of rest and dony worry, everything is going to work out,

All my love,

yr APT


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Friday, April 09, 2010 3:33 AM
To: MT
Subject: Friday morning...

My Dearest Darling M**** ,

I've lost count of how many days it is now since we first met (but dont worry, I'll soon work it out) and for the only time in my life, I can say that my love, my admiration, my respect and my feelings for you have grown each and every single day. You will never know the extent of what I feel for you, surely one reason for this must be the loving and sincere feelings that i receive from you, I have never yet heard you say critical comments, like, ur too fat, ur too old, ur too mean (well, actually, I have heard that one ! ) but you know what I mean, I've only ever found you to be kind, considerate and understanding, and I truly beleieve this is your nature that shows through, and for that, Im truly grateful.

I can only ever see a future for us together that will be harmonious, filled with pleasure, enjoyment, friendship, and love, we will treasure each other, exactly as we both merit and deserve, grow old with fond memories of each and every day of our times together, hmmmmm, sounds like we should get married, what do you think?

Its been a little strange this week, sometimes quiet, sometimes busy, but as always, there is time to think of you, and of us, which I do a great deal of the time, dot think me strange when I tell you I often imagine you sat next to me when im driving, making the odd comment as if you may respond, especially now that I drive around manchester so much, past all those places we have been together, every one of them reminding me about the time 'when I was there with M** ', yep, I think Manchester is 'our' city.

I hope you enjoy the cinema this evening babe, if you dont, please dont tell me as I dont wanna cancel my visit on sunday! hehe, just dun eat too many chocolates while you watch the film! I dont know when you may be back, but i assume i will be home, waiting for you, so, if ur nt too tired, please have a look and see if you have at least a few minutes for a lonley old man (forget the 'old' bit!) hehe

See you in fb around 11am if you can baby, until then,

with all my love,
APT


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Wednesday, April 07, 2010 2:49 AM
To: MT

Good Morning Mrs T

What can I tell you my sweetheart? I've hardly done any work today, and here I am, completely shattered and going to bed at 7 30 in the evening. Im just so glad that from this weekend my rota in the store will change, so then i can get some sleep during the midweek. You know, i sat trying to watch some tv and started to think to myself, how can I really look after my wife, if all i do is fall asleep all the time?

For the first time in as long as I can remember, I felt absolutely fatigued this evening, i sat, unable to move until i started to think, I.d better just get up, get on with it and forget all about feeling tired, and you know what ?, it didnt work ! Hahahaha, so, i'm giving in to it tonite, off to bed, sleep, and hope to wake up feeling better and ready to face another day.

I can honestly tell you, the one thing that keeps me going is the prospect of us being together, Im not lying to you when i say, without that to look forward to, I m not certain I could go on like this, but when i just think about the reason im doing all this, it all becomes clear, to be with you, to have you here with me, is the only reason i need to wake up in the mornings, you have become my everything, but you know all this 'cos i've told you before

Yes, i miss you so much MT, cant wait to hold you again, to kiss your beautiful lips once more, and feel you next to me, hmmmm, now i can go to sleep in peace,,,,,,,,

You take good care of yourself darling, you're so special to me, i'll look for you in fb at 11am, hope you're there, goodnight,

all my love,
APT
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Tuesday, April 06, 2010 4:18 AM
To: MT

Good Morning Darling

It's so nice to get back to normality !, me sat here, writing to you in the evening, you, hopefully, reading my email at work while you relax with a coffee and cake, ordering everyone around, being the boss, hehe.

Its so lonely , being without you and i can only dream of a time when I will be able to wake up next to you, to feel your warm body next to me, to gently kiss you good morning, and to see you wave me goodbye as I go to work at whatever disgustingly early hour of the morning it may be, but just as importantly, to be there when I come home, a friendly, loving smile to come home to, wow ! Having Winnie just isnt the same !.

I loved your email that you sent me earlier, I promise to return the favour, but not this morning, just cos Im feeling in a kinda homely, wanna be contented, kind of mood this evening, I just want to let you know that its not all about sex (although a lot of it is!) but the ordinary, everyday things that I love about you, those normal things that we can do as a couple, too many to list, but you know exactly the kind of things Im thinking about. Probably the single most important thing I want you be reassured of, and I make no apologies for telling you this for the hundredth time, is hat I just want you with me, to love, to hold, to care for, i will neither ask nor demand anything of you, except one thing, and you know what that is, i truly want only to give, not take, anything from you. I want to give you a stable and contented life, one in which you feel secure and at ease, never having to fear anything, a life in which you can have confidence in me as your husband, who will always love, respect and look after you, maybe i cant promise you material riches, but i can promise true and honest admiration, a peaceful existence with the unexpected times of excitement (???, you'll just have to wait to find out!) Haha We will laugh and love together, holiday and shop together, walk and talk, sleep and make love, watch tv and movies, be sad and happy together, eat and drink, smile and cry, whatever we do, we will do it together, we will be Mr and Mrs. What we wont do, is be in each others pockets , you will always be free and encouraged to visit your country of birth, cos I just feel, whatever you think right now, there will be a time when you will feel the need to return to singapore, and you will my Darling, whenever you want to, I want you to feel that being here with me is not like a prison sentence, more of a forever holiday, from which you can return at any time, you must never feel trapped here, because you won't be, the reason you will be here will be for love, nothing else.

I hope after reading this, you will understand my feelings for you, you know already that I love you without condition, you are the most important thing in my life, you will always be, I send you this message with all the love in my heart its possible to have.

until later today,

Love

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Monday, April 05, 2010 5:54 PM
To: APT
Subject: I wanna make luv to you

Dear APT,
It's been so long since we've held each other and when we do get the opportunity I want it to be very special. I want to hold you in my arms and kiss your lips repeatedly.. I want to feel your tongue and mine dancing inside our mouths. I want to kiss your neck and behind your ears and hear your breathing get deeper as you press your body against mine. I want you to undress me one item at a time. As I'm kissing your neck You can open my blouse and remove it from my shoulders and down my arms. Then you can caress my breast inside my bra. hmmmm.. You would then unhook it and remove it releasing my tits with the stiff nipples. I love to see you suck and bite on them as you squeeze them together and then suck on them both together the way I like it.
Then you kiss my belly as you caress my butt cheeks through my panties... run your finger up and down the crack of mine. You will have me lie down on my back and you kiss my thighs moving closer to my secret spot. You have me turn over and get on my knees with my butt in the air. Then you pull the panties aside and run your tongue up and down the crack. Then I turn myself around and spread my thighs so you can tongue my pussy. Making you work it inside for awhile then you rip the panties from me and thrust your fingers inside. You tongue it good until I feel my climax about to explode. You suck on my nipples hard while your fingers working on my pussy. It is getting closer and I moan, groan and calling out your name as I orgasm. My hand reaching for yr hard rod and glide it up my pussy..I make love to it the way you like and then we get our favorite position. With you behind me, you guide yrself in and bury yrself deep inside me. We move perfect together and fill the room with our sounds of sex until I climax. Our bodies are covered with sweat and we are both breathing hard. We rest while holding each other not wanting this to end.
Hmm hubby, I want you now.. Pleeeaasse..

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Wednesday, March 24, 2010 11:09 AM
To: APT

Good morning,

How are you this morning?

It has been so very long since I write a long email to you, but I still remember everything about you. I miss your kiss and the way you made me feel so safe in your arms that I needed that so much right now, it's been way too long since you last hold me. I miss the way you hold me so tight. I know we are far apart but that's just the way distance relationship goes... The way I feel for you doesn't go away. Everyday I wake up dreaming of our time together. I will never forget you, NEVER. I hope you still think of me too even when your busy. I love you with all that I am, all that I was and all that I will ever be...until I come home to you.

Every night I fall asleep with your face pictured in my head to keep me warm all night long. Imagining with a kiss upon my face, I gaze into the night dreaming of us, until the next moment I touch you ....

See you later tonite... love you without conditions,
MT

Baby, I'm going to the hospital after work with mum.

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Wednesday, March 24, 2010 5:43 AM
To: MT

Good Morning Sweetheart,

Nice to talk again yesterday, just like always. I hope you had a good rest and dreamed about us, Im about to go to bed and am sure I will be doing, I seem to have doing a lot of daydreaming about us , especially these last few days, maybe because we havent been talking as much as I would like, I dont know.

So tired honey, since leaving this morning at 4 30, and I know I havent been exactly overworked today, but i finally got home at 8 45, just enough time to have a sandwhich, shower and write you this mail, before calling you from bed and back to sleep, hehe !

Im really looking forward to changing my hours at the store, then for most of the working week, I'll be able to sleep until around 6 30 each morning, I think then I wont get so tired, but for now, grrrrrrrrrrrrrr !

I dont seem to get emails from you anymore, I know you write, but its just two or three lines each time, dont you like writing to me any more ?

The most important thing you need to remember is that my love for you is just as strong as it ever has been, it will never diminish or die, you're in my thoughts constantly, even if we dont talk, nothing changes, I love you, pure and simple.

Time to go and call you now honey, looking forward to hearing you again, see you soon my love,

Love and lotsa kisses,
APT


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Tue, 23 Mar 2010 14:22:16 +0800
To: APT

Baby,

Nothing changed.. not on my side. I still love you deeply.
Not changing my mind at all towards our future.

Luv,
(yr wife)
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Tuesday, March 23, 2010 5:26 AM
To: MT

Good Morning darling,

Hey, I want you to know something, just because we dont talk all afternoon (or evening) it DOES NOT mean I love you any less -OK ?

I know you have your pressures right now, and I regret deeply that I am so far away, at a time when i should be there, next to you, supporting you, loving you, holding you, being your husband, like i want to be. Its so annoying when i cant express to you just how I feel, while Im looking into your eyes, those big, dark eyes that I love so much, how can I tell you when you cant hear me ?, reading words on a screen isnt the same, you're not able to hear the passon, the sincere feelings I so much want to express, all you see are cold, black letters on a computer screen, and you feel that we are drifting apart, how that hurts so much to hear you say such a thing, is it possible that you think this for a reason ? are you beginning to change your mind ?, I hope not, but whn i read things like that, I have to question how your feelings may be changing,,,,,,, but then, I have complete and utter faith in you, so how could that be ?, no, i refuse to believe you have changed your mind about us, I believe in you, trust in you, I love you.

I hope that the only reason you have this silly feeling is because we dont talk as frequently as we did up to last week when i started this new job, but please understand why i had to do this baby, I just want a comfortable life for us when you finally come to stay, and the first step in that plan is to complete the decoration of the house and garden, then when you are here, we can enjoy each other, without spending time on doing the things I can get completed now.

you know honey, Im not a lazy person, but these two jobs are quite tiring, not because of the amount of work involved, but the hours are long, getting up at 4am and sometimes not getting back home until 7 or 8pm, none of this is a problem, because Im doing it for us, but please baby, dont critisize me for doing it, its for us, our future, and a more comfortable life together.

love you MT, dont you forget it, hehe

All my ever lasting love,
APT


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Monday, March 22, 2010 11:34 AM
To: APT

Good morning darling,

How are you this morning? Getting ready for work now? With what's happening around me, I tend to forget your work schedule.

Baby, I have to tell you this. Yesterday, while driving and searching for the hotel, I almost hit an old lady crossing at the traffic light. Everyone in the car were shocked! Wonder what will happen next if I run over the lady. I didn't notice the traffic light was red. There are so many things going around me that I lost focus at times. Anyway, this is not the first time that I hit the red light. The last time I caught my ex having an affair, I beat the red light and was almost crash with a lorry..a close call.

So for now, I will travel in taxi or get my buddy to drive my car to office.

But nothing to worry darling. I promise will be more careful . Promise.

Okay, I will logon my FB now in case you want to talk for awhile.

Luv always
MT


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Monday, March 22, 2010 5:53 AM
To: MT

Good Morning Darling,

I know you must be tired my sweet, so much visiting the hospital, a job, a home to run, you have so much to do, and with all your other problems, I just wish I could be there to support you, it makes me feel bad, knowing that when you need me, I can't be there.
This, and missing you so much, is really getting to me, I dont know what I can do and feel so useless, yes, I like to dream about the future together with you, but right now, Im so concerned, I hardly know what to think.

On a more relaxed note, yes, the Clash of the Titans opens here on April 2nd, in 3D, mayb if M***** wants to go to the Trafford centre, i will go watch it with him over the holiday weekend we have coming up. Would be much better to go with you, how would you like to come to the cinema with me ? hehe.

Thru all the things you have going on right now, the one thing you must never forget is how much I love you, I cant tell you often enough, just in case my senility is catching ! hehe and you may forget.

time to call you and wake you up now, so, until later today, keep my love in your heart, i hope it will keep you strong,

All my love,
APT

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Friday, March 19, 2010 4:30 AM
To: MT

Hello Darling

I hope I did the right thing in not calling you at 5 am this morning, since I don't know what has been happening about your dad, I didnt want to disturb you in case you have been up through the night, maybe you've decided to take the day off, I dont know.

It's so worrying, I dont know what to do, I feel so upset for you my darling, just I want you to know your in my heart and thoughts at what must be a hard time for you

Of course, I hope that things will get better very quickly, I pray for his return to better health, mail me, IM me or text when you can Darling, no matter how long it takes, i understand, of course

All my Love,

APT


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Tuesday, March 16, 2010 3:17 AM
To: MT

HeHe,

See what i enrolled in ! ( below )



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Sent: Monday, March 15, 2010 4:18 AM
To: MT

Good Morning Darling,

I hope your're feeling well today, it's been so lovely talking over the weekend, maybe now i will be working monday to friday we'll be able to spend a little more time at weekends 'together'.

I've been sat in the lounge this evening, just watching tv and thinking about us, and how nice it would be to have you here with me, you know, I don't have childhood like ambitions any more, but much more realistic ones, like being with you, following a happy life together, caring for you and just doing all those things that couples do, whatever that is !
Yes, ok, i admit it, I want to go shopping with you, prepare evening meals together, go watch a film, walk in the countryside, by the sea, entertain friends, family, lots of things that may be considered boring, but to do these kind of things with you makes them specail, to be with someone I'm so in love with is my real ambition.

I've been figuring out, with my new job, I'll be starting at 5 am in the store, then working until 6pm wth the other company, meaning I will get home about 6 30 to 7 in the evenings, that should be perfect for us then to sit and have dinner together, enjoying each other's company, how i look forward to that.

I know you still have your own problems to sort out, its just so frustrating being so far away and unable to be of any practical help, i just wish there was something i could do to help you, but you know my sweetheart, i support you in any decision you make, I know you will do whats best for you and Erin, and thats all that matters.

Hey, speaking of doing things for others, it was so sweet and thoughtful of you today to offer to get the tv from ebay, but please baby, don't do anything like that, even as a surprise, i would be so embarrased if you were to pay for a tv, after all, its my job to provide for you, not the other way around !. I'm absolutely convinced of your sincerity, and i thank you from my heart for the gesture, I know you made it from love and it deepens my adoration for you endlessly

I love you MT, there will never be anyone else in my life, should you ever decide either not to come live here in your other home, or to leave me, I will never feel the same about anyone else, you have become everything to me, and I will treasure you always.

Now, its time to make some dinner, take a shower and prepare things for tomorrow, then call you at ten, and get some sleep, until we speak later, goodnight, and good morning,

All my love, now and forever.



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Friday, March 12, 2010 12:20 PM
To: APT

Morning sweetheart,

Hmm.. I could feel the 'hurts' in you even before I leave you.. aauuww baby, my decision still stand. I don't see any future happiness with him, but you.
I have confident in us as a couple and I'm looking forward to it very much. As I've said earlier, I want to be your wife, going through thick and thin, in good or bad, all through till we got older.

Please have faith and trust in me darling. I love you, only you.. so much... and more of course! However, my decision is not based on doing it for whom or for what. I am following my heart, that is, no 3rd chance!

Till we talk later tonite, love you.

I will text you in the evening ya.

Loooooooooooooove you!


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Sent: Friday, March 12, 2010 5:00 AM
To: MT

Good Morning Sweetheart,

You know, since we met, both here thru a screen and in person, I've never had any doubts about you, nor any reason to have doubts. You tell me that you love me, and I believe you, not a little, but completely, not with a 'maybe', but for sure, in other words, I believe everything you tell me, so be careful about all that you say!

I want to tell you again how much you shud be confident in us and our future together, there is nothing you need to be fearful of my darling, I give you my most solemn and true promise, to look after you, I will cherish you, what would I ever do if I lost you ? There's just no future to my life without you in it, your happiness is my ambition, whatever you want that is in my ability to give you,,, is yours, you haveto believe this, I want you - in every single sense of the word. You're my best friend, my lover, my partner for life, and one day, will be my wife, don't ever doubt any of this.

And, its because I love you so much I can tell you your future is my main concern, so, if you were evr to tell me you changed your mind and decided to stay where you are, I would still wish every happiness for you, I could never simply reverse my feelings for you and although it would be heart breaking I would rather see you apart from me and happy rather than here and unhappy, but hey, lets hope that will never be the case and that you won't change your mind, so we can carry on with our plans and dreams .

On a practical level, I hope you will be strong and continue with finalising your divorce, I just wish I was there to give you the support you deserve .

Obviously, there is some apprehension that you may allow your ex to talk you into taking him back, but I have the feeling that you are stronger than this, believe me, when its over, , it's over, going back in a relationship that has already failed is just a receipe for future disaster and more pain, but I don't want to write any more on this matter as It would be wrong of me to try to influence your decisions, you're a grown up and capable of deciding fo yourself what is best for you, but its only fair of me to say that I desperately hope your decision includes me in your life !.

Have a good party with Z** and your nephew baby, give my regards to Z** (and her current bf!) I have a meeting at 4pm in manchester, so if we miss each other, we'll talk as soon as possible afterwards, OK ?

I love you, MT, don't you ever question or doubt it, its as certain as night follows day.

Your APT


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Wednesday, March 10, 2010 2:51 PM
To: MT

Good norning my darling,

hmmm good NORNONG to you too my love

You had a good night sleep? You must be very tired after your first day at work. Btw, what is the name of your new work place? I'm happy for you if you are happy with your new job. But if you think it's not your kinda field, then I wouldn't want you to commit yourself to stay for the sake of our future or whatsoever. I want you to be comfortable and happy with what you are doing especially when it comes to work cos you're going to face it everyday of your life.

Company name is OCN (office cleaning-Northern), pretty poo as a name, but who cares?, well established over 40 years and clients seem to like them, I got the feeling I will fit in quite well and can have an impact on the efficiency of the business (wont be too hard!) and once settled in, shud be pretty comfortable.

So, tell me, did you meet with pretty hot woman during work yesterday? LOL.. just joking honey. Hey, I miss you so badly last night. I felt like I've lost something but I don't know what.. you know, that kinda feeling. So I started browsing the internet and logon to DD site to read our first introduction emails. It made me smile... Ruv you honey..


Hehe, i kept every conversation we ever had on msn, thats a lot of files, so remeber, I can go back and check on evry word, every promise you ever made ! haha, perfect for blackmail! hehe

I'm looking at holiday packages to Bali now. If I can get a cheap weekend package, I would prefer to fly there with you in September. Also, trying to plan for June school holiday vacation for my family. Looking as Port Dickson Water Chalet Resort in Malaysia.

Baby, you plan anything you wanna do, like I said, being with you is my reason for visiting, what we do and where we go is entirely up to you.

Baby, I wanna tell you what happened yesterday at home. Please, please do not have any doubts about the whole thing, ok? I came home last evening and mum called me into her room. She told me that my ex spoke to her and confessed about his extreme love and feelings for me. That he misses his family life and promises on changing his ways bla...bla...bla.. (yeah rite!). Mum said he burst into tears (crocodile tears) and seek her help to console me into accepting him back. WTF! He also said that he was 'just friend', nothing more with his so called 'gf' was disgnosed with last stage cancer, the reason he met her was to give her a moral support coz she will not live much longer...Now he wish for her bad health! LOL

HMMMM, looks like he's tryin to save some money ! just dun you ever forget, a tiger never changes its spots and a leopard never changes its stripes ! well, something like that,,,,,of coure he wants you back, its cheaper than a divorce ! then he can carry on shagging around, what would you prefer?
In every opportunity he would talk to DD to gain her sympathy with his cheap pathetic stories. Sometime this week he will be taking DD out for a private lunch. Grrrrrrrr! OK enuff of bitching about him for now as I'm not going to ruin my entire day.

Ur right, just get it over with baby, I want you as my wife, nothing's gonna change that.

I will be on FB today and hope to see you there.

Love you baby.. emuahs

Whatever you say, LOVE YOU MORE
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From: APT
Tuesday, February 09, 2010 3:59 AMSubject: Tuesday, One day to Go


Good Morning Darling,

This will be the last e-mail I write for you to read at work before we meet, wowwwwwww, to think that in hours, forget weeks and days, its just hours away. You know, i haven't slept today, and I don't think I will tonght either.

To let you know Honey, this evening S**** called to ask what time I would take W**** and asked me for dinner tomorrow ( today when u read this), so Tuesday evening, I will take w**** and have dinner with r** and s****, but that won't be until around 6pm, so we will have talked on msn by then, all velly confusing, trying to write in different tenses, hehe !, but i hope you understand.

If I understand correctly, you will leave home wednesday afternoon, probably around 7 30 am my time, obviously, I will still be at work for another 5 hours after that, but with my bag already packed, all i have to do is come home, sleep and catch my flight wednesday morning. Still not sure about Z **'s bf travel arrangements? don't worry, if he doesnt get to CDG before you two, just get yourselves something to eat/coffee and I'll hijack my plane to fly faster ! Not because Im concerned about Z **, I just wanna get to you faster, you'll never know how much I've been missing you and how I love you so much. The anticipation of holding you again has been just too much to bear recently, i've not been able to concentrate on very much, with thoughts of you occupying me evry second. I'm so desperately hoping you still feel the same way you did when we were together the last time, tell me you've not changed Honey, after all, it's your fault I fell in love with you, you made me ! There's nothing in the world I want more than to be with you every day, I know, it wont happen soon, but like I told you before, as long as I know it will happen one day, I can wait, even if it's killing me

There's not much more I can do now, just work and wait to be with you , please don't stay late at work today baby, I know you will get plenty of rest on your flight, but I don't want you to oversleep and miss the flight ! hehe
Off to get soup for dinner now honey, sweet dreams, I love you endlessly,
until later,
all my love,
APT


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Morning baby

Loved ur email, so true, all of it Yes, it will work, cos I love u so, and always will getting ready to leave for work now, until later
Morning darling,

How are you this morning? I hope you are getting better. I want you to be in good shape before the trip. Drink more water and take your medicine as prescibed. Hey, I'm prone to viruses too! So, no kissing if you're not fully recovered. hehehe

Yes, 2 more days to go before we can hold each other again and saying goodbye again after 10 days. Well, we gotta get used to this long distance relationships. All we have to really care about is whether or not our relationship is going to stand the test of time. We only need to know how to make relationship last. OK darling?

Believe me when I tell you that distance is not the end of the world in a relationship. Distance cannot hurt a bond between two people in love, if it is based on mutual respect, trust and commitment. But of course it hurt when I missed you so much and that I can't touch you for real to feel your warm body. I'm not going to tell you it will be easy to make this work long distance relationship work. But we both have to make it happen, ok honey? Though the old saying "absence makes the heart grow stronger" may sound good in a song or movie, but when reality sets in, and we're apart for six months or so, it may be more than a relationship can take, if we don't have some kind of understanding what we're up against. We need to learn how to cope with saying goodbye again and again. I guess this is some of the emotional stages of a long distance relationship. And we may not think it could ever happen to us, but we need to be able to combat out-of-sight temptations (but not out-of-mind).
Hey, believe it or not, living apart like this actually strengthen the relationship, but of course again for as long as there is hope that one day we will be together forever. But whatever it is, we will discuss on your visit to spoer when we meet.

Let's keep the fires of our luv burning, no matter where we are ok baby?

Hey, my love for you is not all about sex ok? All I want is a sincere man who will love and appreciate me all his life coz I know I can make a good wife provided you treat me fairly as I deserve.

Till we talk later tonite, Iruv u.
MT

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From: APT
Monday, February 08, 2010 3:53 AM

Good Morning Darling,

Monday morning, and in two days you'll be leaving to be in my arms again, wonderful!

I feel the time has flown by, now that the day is almost here, since we were just talking about meeting again, remember when you said you wouldn't be counting down until February?
Well, February is well and truly here, and the 11th is almost with us when we get to see each other face to face again, mmmmmmmmmmmm, what a sweet prospect!

Probably some time today, you will be talking with Z** about what to do when you first arrive, if the bf is already in Paris, its probably better if the three of you go into town, using the metro link from CDG, but be sure to look at the link I sent you sunday and to get the daily 'paris visite' pass. If of course, he's not there before you then obviously, make your way to terminal 2b, i sent you a page link remember?, and I will meet you off my flight. I suppose to travel from 3 different countries and all arrive within a few hours of each other isnt bad going really, although I would have preferred to fly the night before as I had originally planned, but that's airlines for you!

I finally got all my stuff washed, ironed and ready to pack , just now, i need to print off various emails concerning train tickets and so on. BTW, dun forget babe, if you do go into paris without me, when you get to the ****, ask for Salem, the booking was in the name of APT, he'll call it ' Monsieur APT', or 'Mr APT', mmmmmmmmm, just think, you arrive at the hotel, check in, start to take ur shower, then I arrive and catch you getting urself washed, phoaarrr! hehe!

Hey, I know you want to work late today and tomorow, but DO NOT overdo things, ok? you're not indispensible, ok, they will still be there when you get back, and if they had to do some of your work whilst you're away, good, they will appreciate just what you do when you are there.
I'll see you later today Baby, don't feel that you can't send me a txt today if you feel so inclined!

hehe, until later,
I love and miss you,


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From: APT
Sat, 6 Feb 2010 19:34:13 +0000

Good Morning Darling

So, for you, its now sunday morning, maybe you will read this before you take mum out for breakfast, or when you return, so I hope you had or will have, a lovely day out with mum hehe! Of course, for the next two sunday's you wont be there, so I hope either your sister or brother will do the same for her while you are away.

Baby, Im writing just a short email as its now 7 30pm but Im off to bed, feeling really run down, but I have been to the pharmacy and got some liquid to take, hopefully i will get some sleep and be better tomorrow, or today! hehe

As you know, Im off to have breakfast with peter, thats about 9am but i will log on before that to try and see you if ur home by then, that should be about 4pm your time, I missed you today and couldnt really concentrate while i was feeling so rough

So nervous now about getting better by wednesday before we meet, grrrrr, I hate feeling unwell , but I know that being with you will make me feel just perfect again! I can't wait baby!

Bye for now honey, take care until we speak later today,

I love you dearly,
APT

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From::APT@live.com

Grrrrrrrrr !!!!!!!!!!

Its midnight and I cant sleep, gotta get up for work in three hours and cant sleep at all.
I miss you so very much, what am I gonna do?

Apart from thinkin of you non stop, theres not very much else I can do, except write you an email to tel you now much I truly love you, but you must be getting sick and tired of hearing that by now, so, I apologise.

OK, instead of telling you again, how about this? I want your body, to play with, to make love to, to ravish, to screw all night long until you cum , time and time again, until your whole body shakes with such a strong climax you think you're gonna explode!

But, in the absence of that, a kiss over the internet will do just fine,

I luv you Baby, never, ever forget that

Your sleepless admirer, APT


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From: MT
Friday, February 05, 2010 11:12 AM

Morning baby,

Yes, almost weekend. Yeesss!! But I'm still missing you so much. I wish I didn't have to miss you. If only you could be with me always. I know I could never be any happier. But then again, I know that the day will come when I will be able to spend my every waking moment with you. I even miss you when I am sleeping! ;-)Tell me, what 'stuff' that you are keeping from me? Is there anything that I need to know? As for me, things are hard right now for me, and they seem to just be a big blurry mess in my case to claim my rights for assets. Let's talk things and ease our burden out in Paris. I am only truly happy when I am with you. Your presence just lights up my world. Everything I am and everything I have is dependant upon you. We can be happy together if we talk & work everything out, which I think we will.

Hey, don't worry so much about the job etc. Tomorrow's hopes and dreams will never die as long as you believe in yourself and follow your heart. The strength in you will guide you to accomplish many things in life and overcome all challenges and all obstacles. Never give up, always have faith in yourself, and you will gain the greatest gift of all, the gift of hope you rightly deserve. Whatever you may do in the future, never let anyone stand in the way of you pursuing your dreams. Know that you will always have family and me to rely on whenever you need them. No matter what you may decide to do in life, I will be right there to support, and love you.
You are everything to me and I love you with all my heart. No matter what we do or where we go, I will love you. I will always love you, Baby. You mean the world to me.

Ok dear, gotta go now. Busy as usual and I have loads of task to complete. Going out for lunch today with my collegues. Drop me a quick reply before you go to work. Drive safely and be alert on the road, no day dream or whatsoever.

I'm going for Japanese dinner tonite ya? Will IM you once back home.

Luv always,
MT

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From: APT
Friday, February 05, 2010 5:19 AM

Good Morning Darling,

Almost the weekend, time to pack!

I missed you so much this week, and its not been a week without its problems.
but here we are, at the weekend, and still in one piece, dunno how many pieces i'll be in by next week though!

More and more nervous every day, almost frightened at the prospect, will you be disappointed on this occasion, ? even though you told me you weren't the first time, i'm still nervous about it.
Baby, i want there to be nothing to spoil out time together, just im so worried right now about work and stuff, im not able to concentrate , even on this letter to you, the toughts running around in my head are giving me a headache, every morning, Im waking up with a pounding in my head, not even seeing straight until i been up fpr fiften minutes, its a bit scary, but theres no one i can tell, just you, so much stuff i gotta keep to myself, grrrrrrrrrr, we'll share it one day, i promise.

Im hoping to hear something today from the latest interview, if its a NO, it will be so disappointing, but I'll just have to keep going talking around, it seems its soooo difficult to get work in this dammed country nowadays, what can we do? At least I can forget all about it for a few days while we are together, its the coming back m not looking forward to.

HMMmmmmm, almost 9 30 now, so i can call you in thirty minutes, so gotta take a quick shower, and into bed , hehe, talk to you soon, sooner than you think!

Bye for now darling, see you in msn this evening,
all my love

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From: MT
Thursday, February 04, 2010 11:04 AM

First of all the FB caption has got nothing ot do with you. So don't worry about that.

We'll talk later tonite. Baby, I'm very busy right now. Sorry coz I can't write a long email to you today.

I love you , always and forever,
Your wife-to-be

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From: APT
Thursday, February 04, 2010 3:32

Good Morning darling

So, so sorry I couldnt stay on msn last evening, I don't remember if I was ever so tired in my life before but I had a sleep now and feel ok again. Just one week from today, yeahhhhh! by the time you read this, it will probably be almost a week to the minute when we finally get to meet again, wow! I can hardly believe its gone so fast since we made our plans for meeting again. But hey, I dont want you angry like you wrote on ur fb profile thing, and your email too, do you think i wuda given p***r over 2000 $ as a deposit to buy you his car if i wasnt serious? why do I keep asking you to marry me? you think im joking? noooo, all this because I love you, its not complicated, no-ones walking over you so just dun you be offended so easily, ok? I'm doing all I can to try to ensure that when you finally arrive here, you have a pleasant, happy life, without being forced to work, Im trying to provide all the material things you need 'cos all I want, all I ever wanted from you, is your company, for you to be with me, every day, to live here as husband and wife, and be together for the rest of out lives, please dont try to read into it anything else into the things I want for you, its really this simple, I love you, I want you with me, I want to provide for you, and I want you to be with me forever, thats it !Im more than a little nervous about some things right now Honey, things I can't really discuss, even with you baby, but all i can ask is that you bear with me for now, everything will work out, inchallah. hey, how about we hav some fantasies next week ?, yes, i know you already got some in mind ! but i'm talking now about other types ! I mean like, being together and having grandkids around us, about travelling together, either on a short vacation or a proper holiday back to singapore to see the family there, hehe, its gotta happen one day ! maybe about day to day stuff, anything if it helps us make plans for the future, 'cos out future together is the one fantasy we can make come true. I'll be working for as long as I can today baby, but will probably be too tired to stay later than say, 9pm, so the very latest i will be home will be 9.30, see you then.

All my Love,
APT

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From: APT
Thursday, February 04, 2010 12:17

MT
I have so much more to say, but I won't. I can't. I prefer to walk away in silence but that doesn't mean you can make an accusation and walk all over me. It's very, very troubling, and very subjective and very unfair! aarrgghhh..
53 minutes ago

Huh ? hope none of the above is referring to me!

Just in case it is, first of all, there were no accusations, and no one's even attempting to 'walk over' you , I was simply expressing concerns and being honest, its not unfair to be honest and anyway, I love you without condition, so there! hehe

From: MT

Love you too darling
emuahs

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Wednesday, February 03, 2010 12:23 PM

From: APT

Subject: RE: Another Tuesday Mail

hmmmmm, such a nice message to wake up to.

not feeling insecure at all now,

ur reassurance means everything to me, thnx

gotta go to work now

love you , talk later

x x x x x x x

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Wed, 3 Feb 2010 11:59:41 +0800

Fm:: MT

Morning my love,

My dearest where why are you feeling insecure? Why are you feeling lost and lonely? You need not worry about my love for you. Why you have to let the sorrow cloud your heart? Do you miss me a lot that you're feeling down? Like you, I too has same thought but I just brush it off coz it will only make me feel insecure. You know, I often wonder if you long for me as I do you, is that even possible? Oh, I hope so. I Are you in love with another or still looking for another? Are you talking to someone else whilst I'm sleeping?

I want you to know that since the day we started talking I've fallen madly in love with you. There are no words to express how thankful I am you came into my life, and how you make every moment so special. You are my best friend, my one and only love ;) I love you more and more every waking moment, and I can't handle it when I don't see you every day. A day without you in my life is like a day without sunshine! I need you when I’m cold to keep me warm, I need you in my life to keep me happy. You make me feel amazing. Every second spent with you is another one of my dreams come true. I wish I would of found you earlier during my youth days becoz then I would not of wasted my time on others. I love you with everything I have and more! You are the most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me. Every moment that we spend together is so magical that I catch myself smiling for no reason at all. You are the first thing I think about in the morning and the last thing at night! I would of never imagined finding a love that is as strong as ours, but now that fate has brought us to each other I know that you are the person I want to spend the rest of my life with, the person I want to marry the person I want to have my 'instance' family with, and the person I want to grow old and wrinkly with! hehe..

Honey, you complete me. You make my life so incredible and I don't know how to repay you but to love you just as much as you love me AND MORE! You make my heart happy!! I am so thankful for what we have, and for everything we will have. You are the only person I ever want to share my life with. I could never imagine what it would be like if we were to lose each other, and I don't even want to think about it. I am crazy about you! I didn't know you could love someone as much as I love you!

Forever my love,

MT

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Wednesday, February 03, 2010 4:22 AM

From: APT

Subject: Another Tuesday Mail

Hi Baby,

Sorry to bother you but I'm restless and can't relax. Dun wanna watch tv, thinking so much about you I had to write again.

Not really much to write about, you know what? I think I'm worried about us, its why I can't think straight. Tell me honey, we are as strong as ever together, aren't we? It's just sometimes, being on my own so much, I got too much time to worry about losing you. All the 'what if's' I begin to go crazy thinking about all the bad things that could happen, like, will you ever get bored of waiting? Am I not doing enough to convince you about how I feel for you? What if you suddenly find someone else, maybe closer to you, maybe someone you meet up with again thru that dammed f/book site? Why am I feeling insecure? Do you really, really believe me when I tell you how I feel or am I being stupid? It's all so frustrating, sometimes I just want to turn around and see your face, look into your eyes, hold your hand and I can't do a thing about it; cos you're not there, you're not there to talk to, not there to collapse into your arms at the end of the working day when I need you the most, not there to talk to about all the things that are going wrong, not there to tell me how your day has been, how you got lost around the shops and why your'e late coming home from having coffee with a new friend you made at the mosque. Just not there for me to touch so I know you're real, and finally with me so I can show how much I'm in love with you, to look after you, laugh with you and cry with you.

Grrrr, dun take too much notice of all this rubbish Baby. Just wanna write to you since it makes me feel closer. I know there's nothing we can do about being apart, but I want you to know how much it hurts, you will more than likely tell me it's the same for you, but believe me when I tell you, it's not Honey, it's nowhere near the same, day after day and night after night, missing and wanting you, the one and only good thing is that you will never know this feeling, having so many around you, you're lucky.

I think I can now go to bed, as my eyes are heavy and closing, so the thing I look forward to the most, going to bed and dreaming about you, I can now go and enjoy.

See you later my lover, you're always with me, in my heart and in my thoughts,
bye bye Darling

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Fm: APT

Good Morning My Sweetheart,

Well, here we are, one week to go and I can hardly believe its passed so quickly since I told you I was counting down, you told me at that time that you woudn't start to count until it was February, well, I hope your'e wel underway now! Maybe its just because I was looking forward to it soooo much, more than you, that I needed to count the days, hours and moments until we meet again, anyway, its almost here thats the important thing.

Honey, I didn't want to bore you silly this afternoon about the interview, but now in writing, I can bore you with more details Hehe! Even though I felt it went quite well, I've been here before so have no expectations at all, the MD made positive comments during the conversation but I've heard so many of them before, I'm not convinced at all, but hey, who knows, if it leads to another meeting it will take place next week, before i leave for Paris, so maybe there will be more news by then, it could even be a celebration, or a commiseration, either way, it shud involve a lot of luv making to recognise the result!

I got my suitcase down this afternoon, and started to select the things I may need, just the usual stuff like condoms, cock ring, flavoured intimate sprays, porno mags and videos, a months supply of viagara, butt plug, vibrator batteries and pure silk underwear. Then a few items thats might just come in useful like clothes, but not too many of them! Now I have the essentials, I gotta check on admin items, passport, tickets and so on.

I love you MT and during this coming time together want to reassure you of just how much. When you return this time, I want there to be not even the slightest doubt in your mind that being together is the only option for your future happiness, and that every day spent apart will be filled with longing for each other and misery at our seperation. But to counter this, you should know I already have in mind that I will travel to Asia for our following meeting, whether you take time off or not, I will be there to see you off to work and meet you when you finish I want to see your environment, experience your lifestyle, to know your world and how you live day to day. I know, obviously, there will be places and people off limits. I am prepared to accept this as long as it means being with you. Baby, I would appreciate you letting me know about the climate, I would prefer a time of the year when the humidity is not so great, a time when we can spend, at least the weekend by a beach somewhere relaxing together.

So, its off I go for this evening my Darling, off into the shower (better make it a cold one!) early to sleep for another middle of the night start! how I long to change this job for one with, even slightly, more sociable working hours, but of course, until you arrive here, it doesn;t really matter. Obviously, we will speak before you read this and as always, I will check my mail at about midday + 2 or 3 minutes when i awake in the morning, I absolutely love to see your name there on my inbox list before I leave for work, even though I may only have time to key in a quick note, I like to let you know I've seen your mail. Hey, did you receive my ecard yesterday? u didnt say, I hope you did, cos I sent you another tonite! hehe!

Bye bye for now my love, please dun ever change ur mind about us, I believe I've passed into the phase of needing you, as well as loving you, and thats a dangerous place to be! but its a risk I'm happy to take.

Speak to you this evening, you have dinner with mum and Deedee, then we can talk.

I love you,

APT