Wednesday, December 08, 2010 2:54 PM
To: MT

hehe, ok Dr Maz, just that Dr Royale at the local surgery disagrees with you, when i said 'probably' what i meant was i had been to see my doctor, and thats what
he told me,, but its ok,,,if you say i dont have it, i'll take your opinion, cos i love you and i dun love him !

how are you today babe ?

write me back if you have time

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Wednesday, December 08, 2010 9:33 AM
To: APT

NO you don't hv pleurisy! You are fine, it's just the weather and lack of rest that caused you the chest pains. You are totally fine! Coz I said that! You will be ok when I'm there. Just hang on till I come.

I know you're lonely, why don't you talk to M*** about your worries and concerns? Or you can always talk to me. I'm always here for you. You hang on till I come ok darling? Be strong for me. I need more years to spend with you. Fight your pains please.. I need you, to shower me wit your love. Please be strong.

Talk to me before you go to office.

Love you too much. I can't imagine myself without you hunny. What would I do without you?
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Wednesday, December 08, 2010 4:55 AM
To: MT
Subject: wednesday

Hi Humny

tuesday evening, sat at home,,alone,,,feeling not too good to be honest, its not just that i probably have pleurisy ( you can google it if
you dont know what it is ) but theres something wierd about things right now, its just a feeling of loneliness i never had before, i resigned
from two jobs, have just a couple of weeks to work before xmas, got no one to talk with about worries, concerns, obviously no one that ive been working with now cares what i do for them, im just history, pains in the chest, side, back, shoulders, arms, sometimes unable to move, but i wont tell anyone, why should I ?, theres no one who cares anyway, dun get me wrong, i know you do, but ur so far away, fact is babe, right now i fel weak and like i cud give up on eberything , just so down, i know it will all change when iget over felling rotten and especially when your here, but right now, its pretty dark here, its lonely here, and its cold and theres pain here as well

but hey, apart from all that, everythings just fine

need you hunn, need to hold you and talk to you, i cant wait until you get here, but til then, i'll talk to you this morning, i hope,

love you